Trapped Inside My Head...

I'm finally starting to feel somewhat normal now that the battle inside my head has decided to cease fire or rather that shots are only being fired spontaneously. Sometimes I get completely lost in my thoughts for weeks at a time. It's not always a bad thing unless it is an unpleasant issue that I'd rather not be thinking about sans this past weeks thoughts. I'm a firm believer that prayer works. I think I have succesfully prayed myself out of my head. There are definitely blessings that come from above...in all forms. Sometimes you don't get what you want and it can be even better than if you'd gotten EXACTLY what you asked for. I'd rather not go into the details of my thoughts for fear that I might end up right back in the thick of it. Do you ever have times when you just can't turn it off? I know people talk about this happening to them when you're trying to go to sleep at night but that is not the kind of thing I'm talking about. I'm talking about the type of thoughts that come and go no matter what you're doing. The kinds of thoughts that are magnified by certain things around you that bring you right back to the place you just came from. And I know some of you are out there saying that they make medication for that. Yes. I know. I've taken some and it made me numb and I couldn't think about even pleasant things. I didn't think about anything other than what was absolutely necessary. I love to ride in my car on the way home and ponder things that I hadn't had time to think about during the day. It relaxes me. On the other hand, when there are those things in your head that you can't turn off it makes the ride home miserable. I guess that is what they really make a radio for, huh? I just finished the book "Bitter is the New Black". The book was lent to me by a friend and she was right...the book rocked. I totally recommend it. It really made me think about what really makes us happy. People say that money can't make you happy and to some extent I do agree with that statement, however, I do believe that it makes life easier. I'm really not much of a reader unless it is a book that I absolutely cannot put down. This book was one of those. I don't know if I was desperate to direct my thoughts in another direction or if the book was just superb?. Either way...I totally enjoyed it. And i must say that it was the 3rd book that I've read since June which is so totally out of character for me. Alright! So I've rattled on for long enough. I hear something interesting going on on TV and am going to check it out. Just be careful with decisions you make. The consequences could haunt you for weeks, months or even God forbid...years!